…at trying to disguise the effects that Lupron, Estrogen and an upcoming Frozen Embryo Transfer have on my body. Just look at what has become of me.
My head, heart and soul are in a really good place this cycle. At the beginning of the cycle, I wondered, “Should I go into the cycle with really high hopes, putting all of my positive vibes out there into the Universe? Should I go back to that place where I was? Hoping, praying, believing? Or, should I have NO expectations so that the possible let down won’t be as intense? What’s better? How should I mentally prepare myself? Am I up for this? What is the best approach???”
The answer? I stopped myself in my own tracks and I turned it over. I needed to STOP over thinking it. I needed to take my medicine and to do absolutely nothing else other than to make sure that I am enjoying and appreciating summer and my friends and family, every single day. Sure, I am praying and staying positive, but these days what’s swimming around in my head is a lot more peaceful than the desperate hand-wringing, begging, pleading and “what ifs” that were there before.
So, tomorrow I have an appointment to check my uterine lining and we’ll take it from there. My challenge is going to be to keep this good mojo going throughout the next few weeks. But, for today, I’m letting that go. I’m not going to think about it too much…